Trenches
You never really know how things will turn out in your life. Maybe that’s a gift. Maybe that’s a curse. After what happened to my family, I live in a constant state of fear. Have you ever felt like this? Now I know that bad things can also happen to me — so what’s going to be next? I wonder… And yet, although some things changed for the worse, some things changed for the better. You know, I always knew I was lucky. Lucky in love, lucky with my family. But you can’t be prepared for all the bad scenarios in a relationship, so when something truly awful happens, it can be a surprise how the other person will react. When I was in the hospital, my husband stayed there with me. They put our beds together and tried to make it “cozy” for us — well, I don’t know a better word for it. They tried to make our lives a little less shitty in that moment. We couldn’t sleep sometimes, so we helped each other. We talked and cried, talked and cried… and it went on r...
